"Some are tempted to think of life in cyberspace as insignificant,
as escape or meaningless diversion."
— Sherry Turkle
Everything that happens in society happens on the
Internet too.”
— Phil Agre
Prologue
Late one afternoon in early spring two visitors stood
atop a gray limestone tower gazing across the sloped shoulders of South
Mountain in Western Maryland. "This is the original Washington's Monument,"
the man was telling the young boy at his side. "It was built in a single
day right here on the crest of the mountain way back in 1827."
“One day,” the boy said, trying
out the bold idea.
Tousling the boy's hair, the
man checked the stretch of Appalachian Trail running through the trees
below to make sure they were still alone. Satisfied the unstaffed park
was indeed empty, he grabbed the boy under the arms and hoisted him onto
the ledge of the 100-foot monument. "Don't worry, I have your belt."
The boy was wary at first. Once
on the ledge, he steadied himself and marveled at the broad valley before
him.
"It fell apart over the years
but some boys not so much older than yourself who worked for an organization
called the CCC re-built it during the Great Depression. They submitted
to proper adult counseling."
The boy looked down at the rockslide
scattered like marbles at the base of the monument. He thought: I wouldn't
mind building things like this. No adults, just a bunch of us guys.
"Call me Daddy-Whit now, like
I said."
"Can we go exploring down there?”
“Say it.”
“There's lots of neat places
to check out. Maybe there's even a cave under the rocks?"
The man didn’t acknowledge the
question.
“Let me give you a lesson from
life. During the French and Indian War, a British general named Edward
Braddock passed this way with an army of British regulars and colonials,
and eight Indian guides to fight the French and Iroquois. He ended up getting
himself and hundreds of his men killed. You know why?”
The boy leaned forward and dropped
a dab of spit down toward the rocks. He was sick of Daddy-Whit’s lessons.
“Because he refused to heed
the advice of his aide-de-camp George Washington. That’s what happens when
you don’t listen to those who know more than you.”
The boy spotted some Canadian
Geese winging by overhead. They were so close he could practically reach
out and grab them. Their shadows cast hexes on the hillside.
Flapping his arms, he imagined
soaring away with them. He closed his eyes and flew out over the valley.
“I’m flying,” he cried.
“Why won’t you do me this one
favor?” Daddy-Whit said. “What’s my name?”
Feeling weightless, the boy
stretched his arms so wide his fingers tingled. “Fly away.” It echoed across
the valley.
“I’ll teach you to fly away,
you little shit.”
The boy looked back. The sunlight
glinted off Daddy Whit’s bald head. His face was edgy with shadow. “Daddy-Whit,”
the boy said to him. He tried to make it sound normal, like he called him
that all the time. But it sounded more like a taunt. The boy broke into
laughter.
So did Daddy-Whit. “Time to
go exploring,” he said. “Come on down now before you fall.”
“Exploring! For real?”
“Of course, for real.”
Moments later, descending the
dark stone steps through the monument’s dank interior, Daddy-Whit started
whistling a sprightly version of Jimmy Crack Corn. The tune snaked between
his teeth in a hiss, rising and falling with each breath. He was already
thinking of Black City.
1.
This is Black City
a PKill Mud
You are standing on the corner of 9th and E streets. The buildings around you are of Indian red brick alternating with concrete and Florida glass. Dim yellow light glowers behind pulled shades. A few windows hold air conditioners. The ground floor architecture is art deco. The shops are small and varied. The hum of their neon signs is the only sound competing with the gritty tap of your shoes on the sidewalk as you enter the city alone and unprotected.
The streets are empty except for blowing newspaper. No people are in sight. Several blocks away a bottle smashes and someone shouts in fear ...
No guests.
No help files.
No safe rooms.
6 ticks to logout. (You can run, you can hide, but
you can't quit.)
You are on your own.
You have been warned.
Quixote enters Black City.
Down 9th street the shadows move and someone appears.
It is a man. He raises a hand in greeting, waves. He lowers his hand, freezes
for a moment, arms suspended at his sides. Then he begins to walk toward
Quixote. He draws near.
The man says, "Hello, Quixote. My name is Sedar."
Quixote says, “Don’t shoot, Sedar. Mr. Arbogast is
expecting me.”
Sedar bows.
Quixote walks down 9th Street.
Quixote enters !Finger.
Present are:
Nickcharles
Mr. Arbogast
Quixote
Quixote says, “Hello, Nicki.”
Nickcharles says, “Evening , sir. What can I get you?”
Quixote says, “Where’s Mr. Arbogast?”
Mr. Arbogast comes out of the back room. Mr. Arbogast
smiles at Quixote.
Quixote sits beside Mr. Arbogast at the bar.
Quixote says, “I need a favor.”
Mr. Arbogast, “And what would that be?”
Quixote says, “My ward has met with an unfortunate
accident.”
Mr. Arbogast shakes his head in amazement.
Quixote says, “Can you help me?”
Mr. Arbogast says, “Of course I can help you. The
question is will I help you?”
Quixote says, “Will you help me?”
Mr. Arbogast says, “Am I going to read about this
in the newspaper?”
Quixote says, “That’s my problem.”
Mr. Arbogast says, “Ah, but I don’t intend to let
your problems become mine.”
Quixote says, “Will you do business with me?”
Cybercat enters Black City.
Nickcharles whispers to Mr. Arbogast, “Boss, Cybercat,
just showed up. He’s on his way here.”
Mr. Arbogast whispers, “Is he armed?”
Nickcharles whispers, “To the teeth.”
Mr. Arbogast whispers, “He would be.”
Mr. Arbogast says to Quixote, “You’re in luck my hot-tempered
friend, “Some one is on his way here right now. Go into the back room and
watch through the curtain. If you like this kid’s spunk, I can probably
have you a GIF in a few days.”
Quixote says, “Why can’t I sit here?”
Mr. Arbogast says, “That’s not how I do business.
Go there or leave Black City forever.”
Quixote goes into the back room.
Cybercat enters !Finger.
Present are:
Nickcharles
Cybercat
Mr. Arbogast
Cybercat pulls his Bullpup Combat Shotgun.
Mr. Arbogast says, “Cybercat rules.”
Cybercat says, “Except here.”
Mr. Arbogast says, “You killed off everybody we put
in your way.”
Cybercat says, “gg.”
Mr. Arbogast says, “I’m sure it was.”
Cybercat says, “Maybe I should kill you, too.”
Mr. Arbogast says, “Maybe you should.”
Cybercat shoots Mr. Arbogast.
Mr. Arbogast laughs.
Cybercat shoots Mr. Arbogast in the head.
Mr. Arbogast laughs again.
Cybercat says, “How come you can’t die?”
Mr. Arbogast says, “I own Black City.”
Cybercat says, “You’re the man.”
Mr. Arbogast says, “That I am.”
Cybercat says, “Do you own Zed, too?”
Mr. Arbogast says, “In a manner of speaking.”
Mr. Arbogast says, “How’d you’d like to come work
for me?”
Cybercat says, “Doin’ what?”
Mr. Arbogast says, “I need a right hand man.”
Cybercat says, “What about Sedar?”
Mr. Arbogast says, “Sedar’s a bot. You interested?”
Cybercat says, “I might be.”
Mr. Arbogast says, “I’ll need to know how to get in
touch with you in real life.”
2.
They’d been having an okay time. Well, sorta okay. Hanging
out with his sister wasn’t the coolest thing he could think of. Not as
much fun as wasting people in Black City. “Look, there’s that funny-looking
guy again,” Michael said as he handed Lindsay an ice cream cone. “That’s
the third time I’ve seen him.”
“It doesn’t matter, Michael.
It’s eight o’clock. We have to go home now.”
"You've got ice cream on your
nose, sloppy." He wiped the ice cream away and handed her a fresh napkin.
“Chrissie won’t care if we’re a few minutes late.” He sneaked a glance
over his shoulder. The boy was still watching. Their eyes met. The boy
veered off and headed outside. “She’s too strict anyhow.”
“She is not, Michael. She worries
about us. Besides, we’re late.”
Once they were on the sidewalk
outside the mall, he pointed to the display window three stores down. “At
least let's check out the pet store. I bet they have Dalmatians. Come on,
I’ll say it’s my fault. We’re not that late.”
“You can if you want to. I’m
leaving.”
“Give you a dollar.”
“It’s Chrissie’s money.”
“Go ahead then. I’ll catch up
… and watch out for cars.”
Michael headed down to the pet
store. Sure enough, the window was full of helpless little spotted puppies,
all fawn-eyed and squiggly. "Hey, Lindsay, lookie here."
She didn't answer, and when
he turned to look he didn’t see her. He moved to the curb, straining for
a glimpse of her crossing the parking lot. Arriving cars blocked his line
of sight. Rising to his tiptoes, he scanned the lot, no Lindsay. All he'd
wanted was a quick detour to look in one window.
He jumped onto a bench. "Lindsay,
come look at the Dalmatians.”
Just then a mini van pulled
out of a parking space halfway across the lot. There she was, her mouth
still smeared with ice cream. She'd gotten far in those few moments and
she was walking with that boy who’d followed them in the mall. Creepy looking,
too. Blond hair straight up at his forehead, short and mashed down every
place else. He was dressed in camou — a miniature soldier, sleeveless,
with pouch pockets low on his thighs and ragged-out Nike high tops. The
dark circles under his eyes reminded Michael of a raccoon. Except this
raccoon had dead eyes.
Michael ran over to them.
“Hi,” the boy said. He came
up to Michael's ear, had pale, dirty-looking skin. Probably came from further
down University Boulevard towards the college, near where all the Hispanics
and immigrants lived.
“Hi,” Michael said back. Stuffing
her used napkins into his pocket, he took his sister's hand and began walking
away.
"Excuse me," the boy said. "Could
I talk to you for a second?" He moved in front of them. "My name is Ed."
He held out his hand. It was small and the fingernails were bitten down.
"What's your name?"
Michael didn’t say anything.
“He’s Michael. I’m Lindsay,”
his sister piped up.
He nudged her to be quiet. Now
he was the one who wanted to get going. There was something about this
guy he didn’t like.
“You live around here, right?”
“So?” Michael put his hand on
Lindsay’s shoulder and guided her away.
"Wait! We're lost. Can you help
us?"
"Are you with your parents?"
As if on cue, a big blue Pontiac
pulled up. Michael glanced inside at the floor shift and tach on the column.
It reminded him of a picture he had of his mother sitting in a car back
before he was born.
The driver smiled at him. He
was heavyset, in khaki-colored work clothes and Orioles sunglasses.
"This is Michael," Ed said to
the driver, adding with uncertainty, "His sister’s with him … I told him
we were lost and asked for directions."
He looked at the man, who thought
for a moment before motioning with his head. Ed opened the door and jumped
in. "Come on." He slid over to make room for them. “Show us the way.”
Lindsay got in.
"Hey." Michael grabbed for her.
As he reached out, the driver took off his sunglasses and said, "We're
really lost, son. We need directions to get home."
He seemed genuine.
Lindsay was already in the car
beside Ed. "Come on, Michael, get in," Ed said. Reluctantly, Michael sat
in sidesaddle. "I think we'd better walk over to our house." Chrissie was
going to kill him. She was always warning him about this sort of stuff.
The car started moving. Michael
tried to jump out. The car stopped. "If you're worried, son, go ahead and
walk and we'll follow you. We sure don't want to get you in dutch with
your folks."
"It's not our folks, " Lindsay
said. "It's Chrissie. She's our sister."
"We surely don't want to make
your sister angry. Do we, Ed?"
"Nope." There was something
grim about Ed’s voice. He crawled over the seat into the back, making room
for Michael beside his sister.
“Will your sister give us directions?”
the man asked.
"All right." Michael swung his
legs around and closed the door. "Go up to the Midvale Road exit and turn
left on University."
The car moved up to the intersection.
"When the light changes go left
and then right on that street up there — Valley View Avenue. That's our
street. We live three blocks down."
They followed the line of cars
through the light and went left on University. The man peered over the
steering wheel as though searching for the street through a dense fog.
"That's it right there," Michael
cried. "Turn here."
The car crept past Valley View.
"Hey, you were supposed to turn
there."
"I'm sorry, I didn't see it
in time. Can we take the next one instead?"
"You can go right and come back
up almost to our house. It's simple."
As he spoke, he felt Ed's hand
reach past his shoulder and place something over his face. He couldn't
tell — an old T-shirt, a dust rag maybe. It had something wet on it that
smelled like the Varsol stuff Chrissie used to clean with. Its swirly fingers
grasped his temples, pushed straight up his nose. He brought his hand up
to knock it away. Lindsay was talking to him. Her voice was far away and
sad. Another set of hands came up around him — dark unfriendly hands. The
hands of night he always feared might snake out from beneath his bed. Now
they had him in their clutches.
3.
Not until the moment Gail slipped in the front door carrying
a six-pack, did Christine realize how starved she was for a visit from
anyone who didn't specialize in shouted commentary over the backs of cereal
boxes. No one over thirteen had been in the house since Gail came to Lindsay’s
birthday party. And here it was May already.
Gail gave her shy smile and
pushed her granny glasses up.
They hugged. "I missed you,"
Christine said. "Feels like it's been forever.”
“Where are Michael and Lindsay?"
"I let them go to the mall."
"Alone? Oooh, lightening up
in your old age."
"Well, Michael promised to stay
with Lindsay. I couldn't really say no."
Christine put on a Midnight
Oil CD for old time’s sake and they sat down at the kitchen table, where
she’d put out tortilla chips and salsa in her mother’s serving bowls. “It's
about time I lighten up on them little. Ever since Mom died, I’ve been
scared to let them out of my sight.” She took a drink of beer, looked at
the bottle. “God, I can’t remember the last time I had a beer. All I buy
is milk, Pepsi and orange juice. I'll be feeling it after one.” Christine
and Gail were born within a few days of each other. They’d been friends
since elementary school. “So, how do you like your new job?”
“The hours are long, but retail
isn’t so bad. You should come over now that I’m settled in.”
“I keep meaning to. But I’m
so tired when I get home from work and feed these two, all I feel like
doing is vegging out in front of the TV."
“All the more reason why we
should do something special for our birthday. After all, we're going to
be twenty-five.”
“I can't believe we're
that old already.”
“My sister’s letting us use
her condo in Ocean City as a birthday present,” Gail said slyly. “You,
me, and Michael and Lindsay.”
“You’re kidding.”
“She said she'd even baby-sit
Michael and Lindsay if we wanted to go alone. She'd probably even stay
over here, too. I think she'd do anything to get away from her husband.
You should let her. You need a break.”
It would be nice, Christine
thought. The past four years haven't left much time for fun. But … “No,
they’d love it. It wouldn't be fair not to take them."
“I told my sister you’d probably
feel too guilty to leave them for a whole weekend.”
Christine hopped up merrily
and pulled two more beers from the refrigerator. “They’ll be so excited
they’ll be freaking out all over the place. Come on, let's drink too much."
And they did. The salsa
disappeared. They ordered a pizza and it was ten of eight before
Christine realized that cloying sense of guilt she'd been pushing away
had nothing to do with maybe going to the ocean without Michael and Lindsay.
She checked her watch. It was past time for them to be home. Jumping to
her feet, she called upstairs, hoping they'd somehow slipped in and gone
upstairs for some strange reason.
When they didn't answer, she
hurried up the steps.
She opened the window in Michael's
bedroom and leaned out. Although the clear spring evening was showing hints
of night, plenty of light remained for her to see that they weren't playing
down at the end of the street.
Gail joined her in the bedroom
and its disarray of clothes, school books, and things she always thought
of as boy's stuff: filthy sneakers, sweat socks, comics, bubble gum, and
balls of all varieties. Boys were always throwing things. At some point
Michael had tossed his sweatshirt over his computer. He probably thought
it looked cool and left it there on display. "I'll bet they're on their
way home now," she offered.
"They were supposed to be back
no later than quarter of eight."
"It's only a little before eight.
Maybe they're still there?"
"They shouldn't be walking the
streets at this hour. It's almost dark."
"They'll call. Come on, Chrissie,
let's go finish our beer."
They returned to the kitchen.
The pizza box lay open and empty. "I forgot to save them a slice.” Christine
scolded herself. Sitting down at the table, she took an emphatic swig of
beer. “No.” She put down the bottle and picked up her keys. “This is wrong.
They shouldn't be out at this hour. I'm gonna go look for them.”
No use arguing with her. Christine
could be hard-headed when it came to Michael and Lindsay. Gail stuffed
the pizza box and the empties into the trash bag and put it on the back
porch.
Christine wrote a note, just
in case. "YOU'RE LATE." Softening the next line: "Went to look for you
at the mall. It's eight. Be back soon. Door is open. STAY HERE. Luv u,
Chrissie."
She taped the note to the front
door low enough for Lindsay to see if she came home alone. The two women
got into Christine's car and pulled out of the driveway.
The parking lot at Wheaton Plaza
Mall was so packed she had difficulty finding a place to park. "Michael
usually goes down to the food court to play the video games. You wait here.
I'm sure they're down there, and I'm just being silly ..." She didn't finish.
They'd probably lost track of the time. If they weren't eating, she'd find
them wandering the stores. She hurried across the parking lot and into
the mall.
A few boys about Michael's age
and a couple of fat, pimply older guys were fondling the colorful game
boxes at Software, Etc. Michael wasn't among them.
They weren't at the French Fry
Palace or Pizza Hut in the food court either. She didn't recognize any
of the kids. It was pushing eight thirty. All their friends would be home
by now.
Feeling panic for the first
time, she scrambled up the escalator and made for the exit. Outside she
checked the pet shop, getting ready to close. She returned to her Sentra
where Gail was waiting. "No luck, huh?”
"I'm going to try back home.
Would you mind walking through the mall? I already checked the food court."
"Maybe they're at my store."
Christine took off for home,
running the light at University and Midvale. It was definitely getting
dark.
The note was still on the door
and their little house looked bleak and empty. She'd forgotten to leave
any lights on. She turned on every light on the first floor and ran down
to the dead end through the patch of woods to the athletic field of Albert
Einstein Senior High. "Michael," she called. "Lindsay!"
Her voice echoed across the
playing field, across the red composite track and onto the football field
and bleachers. She called again. Turning around she stumbled into a boy
who had come up behind her. "Oh, I'm sorry. I didn't
see you." Christine bent down to see who it was. "Have you seen Michael
and Lindsay Bailey? You do live around here, don't you?”
"Yes, ma'am. Up on Hillside.
I’ve seen you before. You’re their sister.”
"Have you seen them?"
"I saw Michael on the way home
from school today. I didn't talk to him. He's older than me. We don't play
together."
"You shouldn't be out this late,"
Christine said over her shoulder as she hurried away. She drove back to
the mall and found Gail waiting on the sidewalk. Gail shrugged. Maybe Christine
had been right to worry.
"Let's ride over to Circuit
City. Maybe they're watching television and lost track of time.” Momentarily
made hopeful by the thought of her siblings standing wide-eyed before a
TV screen as big as they were, she drove to the annex buildings, one of
which resembled a large red electric plug, Circuit City. Hollywooding the
stop sign by Woodward & Lothrop, she pulled up at the entrance and
ran inside, leaving her door hanging open.
They weren't there. Frightened
now, Christine decided to drive once around the outside of mall. Maybe
they'd gotten lost somehow. Cutting through the parking garage, she sped
around the back past the dumpsters and loading docks and maintenance crew
closing up for the night. The men looked mystified when she asked them
about Michael and Lindsay. Why would two kids want to come back here?
Around past the department store
anchoring the far end of the mall, up toward Giant Supermarket without
sign of them. She left the parking lot, careering through the side streets
until she'd completed the neighborhood loop. She turned back into the mall
when flashing lights brought her to a squealing stop.